You’re really looking forward to something you’ve planned or have a good feeling about it, for it to then only be thrown back at you and fail as people are complete and utter wankers and refuse to pay attention to your logic / base choices on sub bases and who can give them more from involvement.
It’s worse when some people don’t even give courtesy to respond…
I don’t know what i’m doing now. All i know is that i’ve lost any form of buzz i had last week towards videos.
Went to see New Moon with Katie this evening.
It was the first time i’ve been to a cinema in England where everyone Ooooo’d, laughed, awwwwed, and screamed at the same time. Heck they even laughed at other people in the cinema shouting things….
This made me realise that the twilight fan base is so in sync and well linked as it is that they could probably team up and destroy a country. Like North Korea… or Paris. Seriously. Hardcore people right there.
I’ll be honest though.. i was half expecting to be found dead tomorrow, drowned in a sea of women jizz towards Edward Cullen. Safe to say i dodged that bullet. Sat at the back so it didnt quite come near me, innit.
I haven’t had a uberly amazing excitement buzz towards youtube or any videos for sometime, and it was doing my head in. Last week i had a really good idea out of the blue. I wanted someone to help me get my ideas right and to make sure i had the right aim with it, and to also help me with it all overall, so i approached Liam.
Safe to say i am now really really excited and hoping it goes well! 
Gonna be ringing a fair few people over the next few days ref bits and bobs =)
I have had various emails and tweets over the past few days which generally ask what’s happening with my channel and why it isn’t available.
Firstly i would like to throw it out there that i haven’t closed my account and i’m not leaving YouTube.. i’ve just taken the channel down for a few days. It’s a partner feature that allows us to hide our channels when we need to. Initially i did it so i could play with Imagemapping and new designs without people seeing them.. but i kinda gave up on that and reactivated the channel.
But now it’s down again. This is for mixed reasons.. one being im back at trying to imagemap, another being that it’s a memory box for me and recently i’ve found myself missing a lot of people… Finally i took it down for the next few days whilst i properly think about what i’m doing with the channel.
Everyone going to university has resulted in my losing Sam and Dan… two good friends who shared and interest and saw it as a fun thing to do… I hope to film things in bulk with them holidays but that isn’t enough. I don’t like leaving it there for weeks / months with no videos… and i find when i do that i trash any viewership i once had.
So it’s down for a few days whilst i redesign and rethink.
=)
Last night i had a weird dream. Made weirder as the wind made my door blow as if someone was trying it… I ended up not being able to sleep so wrote it down to remember it
In my dream loads of people were being taken through some processing halls clueless to what we were doing. We were then handed a whistle, a army drinks cannister and some bits of straw. On walking through to the main area i was talking with someone who i dont even know… but in the dream they were apparently a good friend of mine. I said i didnt want to be in the army and that i heard people would die at the war… and got told that there was no going back.
I went back to a desk with a man who had trouble saying the word dyslexia to the boy in front of me.. who was apparently dyslexic. Anyway i chat to him, he tells me i cant leave and gives me more straws. I then turn my back walk off and throw a straw right into his eye.. and run out the door.
I make a run and suddenly the corridoor im running through shifts to my house and i’m looking for a friend of mine who is apparently hiding out there. I then learn that im now a wanted enemy of some new world order and am being hunted down for exposing plots to reduce population with a fake war…
Then theres a knocking at the door and im scared in my dream because i know im surrounded. Then the wind blows my door in the real world and wakes me upt o this knocking… but the way it was knocking was as if someone was there… it was so real. I actually froze for a few minutes, then as it came again i got out of bed and checked under the door.
There ws a shadow and a dark patch of something outside my door. I found myself frozen and not knowing what to do.. at this point i didnt know the lounge window was open sending wind down the corridoor… i thought there was genuinally someone out there .. Considered grabbing the phone and trying security but i didnt want to get someone up over something silly so just ended up opening my door with a umbrella in my hand to find a hoover there… I don’t know why it was even outside my door… Anyhow a gust of wind blasts by me as i go to grab it and i realise the kitchen has open windows and is affecting the doors so shut them all and goto bed happy.
Then my door bangs again. I don’t know what it was that time… i just stayed in bed and ignored it.. but i didnt have any more knocking after it. Not any that i was aware of at least.
Today i spent much of my day working on my website… these can be seen on my course twitter http://www.twitter.com/tomprodinc and blog http://www.tomprodinc.blogspot.com
I’ll be updating them tonioght with stuff on the finished website ready for my presentation tomorrow… it only has to be three minutes long so im all fine with it! =) Would appreciate some feedback once the blogs up later.
Today i found myself reflecting a bit on me… more than normally.
There are times when things are want or like or aspire for are possible for me to get. There are also times when i get signals wrong or get a whole thing wrong and go head first and fuck up. Then there are the times when i genuinally have a shot at stuff but find im scared, and hold back. It’s mixed. I’m fully ready to go and tackle most things, but then when i actually really need to be ready… i’m not.
I hate mental walls. MORE THAN ANYTHING.
The title refers to the video concept i showed an interest towards in my last blog post.
After speaking with a few people i’ve decided i’m definitely going to work towards a lip dub that takes a motion form with lots of people, and following a conversation with Ed i’m thinking it might be possible to film it somewhere like the tate which allows for motion between the floors, and rooms before eventually exiting out of the ramp area. This would allow for the escalators, stairs and lifts to be utalised, aswell as the rooms with various displays. Taking form with people breaking out from casually looking at the area itself to join the lip dub (people being those involved and not randoms)
I’m going to think of a weekend i’d like to do it and make an event / small meet up gathering in November hopefully =) This would allow for lots of people to get involved and for it to be a song everyone knows… something i hope to choose over the next few weeks. Any suggestions for songs that allow for actions, such as queens dont stop me now are welcomed ^^ and would help me out =)
This is the video that currently resides on my channels autoplay: I think it’s really well put together and the concept of group lip syncs that flow in such a way has always been something that has interested me and is deffos something i would love to try. Queen – “Don’t stop me now” is a song that i could see matching this sort of format somehow.. next meet up i’m deffos up for seeing if anyone is up for something like it. Another example:
Lip Dub – Flagpole Sitta by Harvey Danger from amandalynferri on Vimeo.
A lot of people now can be seen on twitter as they upload a video asking (in some cases it doesnt even look like they’re asking) if people will RT the link.
When i see this it kinda bugs me as i just see it the same way i view the whole “rate if you” “Comment about my dog” shit that can be seen on youtube. People generally link videos on their twitter if they like them and want others to enjoy the things they like.. i for example will randomly tweet jake and amir episodes or other random things i favourite. When people link after being told to by someone or asked on twitter… isnt it less that? Hell the people RTing might not even watch it themselves..
It kinda reminds me a long time ago where i had a few people telling me i should be linking them out, and i SHOULD be tweeting and I SHOULD be letting them make videos on my channel because they were my friend… this not being one person but multiple people at different times… Is it really fair to guilt trip people in such a way or expect that? Sure friends help eachother out.. but equally you wouldnt expect someone who’s your friend to start taking advantage of you and exploiting you with that as a card for them to play whenever.
Just looked on twitter for examples of this and there are 5 of this in my own feed… Not gonna screencap anything though cause i’m not attacking anyone specific.. just generally saying this bugs me on a whole.
I can understand tweeting your own things multiple times… but expecting people to do it for you multiple times takes the piss a little bit.. I really do wonder if anyone out there that asks for it actually remembers to rate every video they watch, or comment… i know a lot of people who do it and “watch” my videos yet don’t do this themselves. Equally on twitter… lets say a high followed person requests it and gets 12 people RT, but a variation of different people each time… is that person going to return the favour?
Most likely not.
Do they care?
Probably not.
Yesterday on the way out I was approached by a guy from my college who told me he’d seen my videos..
I was slightly taken a back and confused with how he brought it up as it wasn’t clear what he was going on about.. And then he told me it was fine and that he wouldn’t tell anyone.. This made it awkward for me as Im normally open and fine with my channel and tell people it happily..
Anyhows I was curious to know how he found it and he told me some girls in a flat next to him were watching them clueless to the fact I attended the uni.Just thinking that they recognised me from somewhere… Apparently for their course advertising and marketing they use YouTube a lot for research…
To be fair though I was semi expecting another “I’ve seen your videos” soon as my pokemon battle video keeps getting featured and picking up views… Though it seems to have slowed again..
Just remembered.. I wanna make a video of my room for burnzy to show by sister who’s still not seen it..
That was the question on my mind this evening as i was in a club named V after a girl came upto me and my friends and told us..
This kinda without even checking sent a chill down me as Zach Braff has always been one of my favourite actors and i love his work on scrubs heaps… actually adamant about the 9th season not being as good without him…
This was made worse by the fact that all my iphone brought up were blogs about him being dead with screencaps of the cnn page… so i went the evening thinking that he was actually dead which was a bit of a downer… This however changed when i got in and checked and found he wasn’t dead and it was some in joke with friends blown out of proportion…
I guess it just goes to show the power of the internet and things like twitter… for example in this case a few twitter users picked up on the post and the fact he might have been dead and then reposted it in a panic, sending a wave of panic and curiosity through a wave of the internet until it spurted into people telling one another about it all through the day in person. I think this is amazing, yet also scary as it just goes to show how careful you have to be with stuff like that…
I mean like.. i’m silly at times… like REALLY silly and have a habbit fo saying stupid things that might offend people and probably do when i post them on twitter at times… the thought that these in this scenario could potentially spread like a wildfire scares me slightly and makes me realise how much more control and thought i need to put into what i put on the internet… I actually privated Eight videos this evening with this in mind which is unlike me but probably for the best with the context of those vlogs… =/
