Lives LOST

New Video! Sub box fails so heres a link:

I did a bit more editing to this… if it goes well i’ll format more vlogs like this and try to add editing n where possible.
Its the first video that ive used drawing over a video XD So im happy. Also hadnt cloned for AAAAGESS so was happy wih how it turned out! =)


Skype Blog 2.0

New contacts & New views – Plus im bored

-You’re quiet and not many people know how to read you, myself included. But at the end of the day, you’re really down to earth and nice whenever i see you.
-You’re in too deep. Get help or give up on it.
-Recently all we seem to have done is argued over the most silly things. Lets stop please. I remember when we would always joke / use random names.
-I havent known you so long but in past month or two i’ve come to find that you’re alot more funny / willing to joke around than i had previously thought =)
-You added me the other day and have never spoken. It creeps me out. Srsly.
-You’re like my link to the professional world of media and are always available for advise! Definately someone i trust =)
-You may be arrogant but i’ve kind of come to accept it as you. You do however need to sort your life out, i hate the whole emo blogs and tweets!!!
-All you do is bitch and whine, and im pretty sure its for attention. Most things you bring up are things you can keep to yourself. You even hop into irrelvant arguments… Sort it out. Kthxbai
-We’ve fallen out once quite recently. It scared me cause we’d always got on so well. Thankfully we’re back on track and still joking about our various annoyances XD
-You expect too much of people, and have too little tolerance to others. You’re also too quick to judge a person. I dont like this, and i question myself often as to whehter or not i like you.
-I wasn’t sure what was going on with us before. We talked alot less. Now i’ve kinda come to understand its just how you are now and everythings the same.
-You’re made of phone fail. But that doesnt change the fact that you’re one of the people i trust the most in my internet life, and that you’re always there to see if im ok if i have troubles =)
-We used to talk alot but you’ve gone off recently. You dont talk and you pull up silly excuses. You suck up to anyone you can online regardless of past things you’ve said… it’s bad. Before i was concerned that we wouldn’t be friends anymore. Now i don’t care. I don’t want to be friends with a person like you.
-Thanks for the help with those polar bears & clones =)
-You’re a bad mother, and when you’re in england i will develop into a woman beater before turning you into child services. ;P
-You’re one of the few people in my internet world that likes comics as much as i do at tmes XD even if a different branch….. infact i take it back. That makes you a prick. Spiderman… pffft.
-You’re my oldest online friend & Always show concern / ask how i am =) You’re a great person.
-You’re gonna rape peoples faces because you’re awesome. Awesome. YEAH
-I think you should stop threatening me with your mother though really =P YEAH
-Not known you long… or had you on skype long… you’re a nice bubbly person though =)
-Deffos one of the people i talk to the most & one of the ones i find myself trusting the most… im pretty sure you could recite a top 10 list of the things that happen to me on a daily basis by now…
-Look it’s ginger chris. Bloody hell its… fail Tom -.-
-You’re a lovely person, and secretly run the uk community…. you elitist overlord queen!!! ;P
-I got told the other day that me you and Dave have some sort of video ring where we “Share subscribers” XD It made me laugh. Tis a shame we can’t be a friends anymore when the new doctor comes… ;P Im sure i’ll find another lookalike! XD (One of the most considerate & polite person i’ve ever come across, both online and offline).
-I don’t know many Canadian peoples…. Doesn’t matter though. You win at being the best of them all… even if i havent met most of the others XD
-You tiny sir. Are slowly fizzling out of life for me for some reason. I think its lack of Stickam & no more Thomash jokes for you to use.
-You’re crazy, but thats why everyone loves you. Enough said.
-Your High pitched NOOOOOOOOO sounds make me laugh XD
-You’re a really nice person. It’s always a pleasure speaking to you =)

Ok boredom passed. Cba typing anymore. If you think you’re on here and wanna know which one tell me which you think you are and i’ll say yes / no =)


Spot the win.


Sleep is actually good on weekdays!! :o

For the past few months I’ve found myself going to sleep after 12 on college days and in the end only getting about 6 hours sleep max ( latest I can wake up is 7) this always resulted in me struggling to get up and out of bed.. It also left me falling alseep / with less attention in class.

I always wondered how the hell Pav managed it with 3 hours or less when I couldn’t with 6 XD in the end I concluded in my head that he can’t. He’s going to die within a year.

Anyway. The past week i’ve made myself sleep around 11 and woken up a bit later giving 8 hours and I’ve found myself much more alert and willing to get out of bed.

Though with that said it’s been sunny… The weathers always had a direct effect on me. As a child I was often sick during storms. Sun seems to give me extra charge =]

Next step: stop sleeping long on weekends so I can enjoy more sunnnnn

Oh and I spoke to the Alridge yesterday. He told me he’d do a face to face with John. After the next four who asked him to do them. So if john isn’t the 7th… Barrys a liar and will be stripped of his god powers? Sound fair?


I haven’t posted a long entry for a long time… Nothing much to blog about lately.. alot of things i put in small chunks on tiwtter and i can’t blog =/

I’m going to blog my life… Yes. It’s decided. This will also kill time whilst i wait for a friend to get here =)

I was born up north around Coventry. Within a few months of being there my parents decided they didnt wish for me to be  brought up there, they saw the area at the time as Dodgy and dangerous – this more so from my Mum who lived her life in Southampton.

I spent the next 3 years travelling alot. We moved alot and this sucked in ways. I can randomly remember kids i used to play with but not in detail, and they’re nowhere now – this is because as we moved around so much i never got ot solidly develop friendships at an early age. I never really had much other than parents and sister. When we finally moved down here this instantly showed to my parents. Mum often refers to me being younger as a well spoken child for my age who was very shy. I was afraid of other kids and lacked the whole innocent “Hey wanna be friends” ability most kids seem to have.  It was ok though as soon as school came i started to make friends pretty quickly.

As a child i was always stuck in a world of fantasy. I would escape with toys, tv shows and games and put myself in the roles. It was fun.

Infants and Jr School arent that memorable because i was an idiot. I remember biting someones arm once and telling a teacher “He put his arm in my mouth and i had to cough” I also remember trading my younger sister in a playground for someone elses younger brother because i wanted a brother XD  I remember the crazes like Digimon Cards, Pokemon Cards Crazibones, and football stickers that all seemed to eventually get banned aswell… But thats pretty much it. Lessons and playtimes then were cool and fun i guess. Just running around without a care because its normal. No worry about looking silly.

Secondary school was a jump into a new world. Strict teachers, detentions all sorts. Playing was done for. Many of my friends and i were split up into different tutor groups because the secondary school was a mix of 6 jr schools. Thought that it’d be find though and that we’d all sitll meet up breaks etc.

They split us up into learning bands T,P,S,U – T being the highest , U being the lowest. I was in band P. Alot of my friends went into band T or band S.
The school gave seperate break times depending on bands, and eventually i found myself making new friends within my classes… bad times.

Went to Germany on a trip with the school week before smmer holidays started. I remember this trip not because it was spectacular. I’ve been to Germany various times now. Same each time.. I remember it becase the day after i got back i was taken to the sailing club for the first time ever.

I was nervous and scared, i knew none of the kids and nothing about sailing. I was worried i’d be judged for my lack of knowledge in it, but it ended up being fine. I was taken out on the water in what at the time seemed like a MASSIVE boat to me. We were zooming along, and this guy was teaching me the basics. He told me that when i got to a certain point i qwould have to choose a path. Racing, or casual sailing with Yachts. The speed and rush on the water was amazing. I knew what i wanted to do from the moment i got out of the boat, and i spent the next year working towards it.
Over the summer between school years i managed to advance from sailing supervsed and only being able to do one of steering or Sail at a time, to being able to go out alone and do both.
I would race the bigger kids and the kids who had been there longer. I would also lose to them. It didnt matter though, because i always remembered that i had only been there a brief time and had so much more to learn.

Summer ended and i thought sailing had too until the next year, i felt kinda sad. However the lady at the club spoke to Mum and asked if i would do a “Team Racing” course. This lasted the whole winter and involved me sitting in the front of that boat i had first gone out in contorlling the front sail in a race situation. This is what devloped me into the sport the most i think.

School at this point was at year 8, and still pretty basic in terms of things now, just learning for SAT exams in year 9. I went on a waterports trip at the end of the year, and we went sailing and i instantly knew everything and felt amazing.

Until i crashed head on into another catamaran and went straight through it. The boat i was on was fine. We had the speed and angle… the other one wasnt. I felt knda bad but i see the funny side to it XD
Summer came again and i saw this as my change to improve racing and beat people. I didn’t

Year 9 and Sats exams. I remember this as the first time i had ever had to revise properly or worried about exams. I had alot of friends that i didnt wanna be moved away from for doing bad in exams. Never considered that they could have done bad -.-

Summer comes and i finally learn to drive a powerboat. I remember worrying that i would not be able to balance the two and sail at the same time.  I’m wrong. I need not worry because i can’t drive the poweboat alone till im 16 anyway XD.
Its this summer that i started to get mroe competitive. I have trophies from a wednesday night series where i began to improve.

Year 10 finally rolled over and it was the begining of the end of my school life. Classes changed this year, you chose subjects so my classes and the people in the individual classes varied. English i still had my friend Mitch, but other than that i had to shift about a bit and adjust. I know the first week was hard. I am a shy person so i dont just go upto someone and chat, i sit in classes or wait to be seated alphabetically.

Science was the one that was worst. I knew noone. I was full of girls i didnt know, and chavvy guys who were all about ripping it out of anyone. Then the teacher sat us alphabetically and i found myself sitting next to a girl i’d never met before.

Half a year passed and i never said anything to her, i just spoke to Dan who had missed the first week but was apparently in our class so got stuck on the unused desk the other side of my table. Experiments always involved freedom of working where you want. I would goto one side and she would move away to work with another person.

Mid year there was a trip to America. It was amazing – almost jumped off a cliff trying to catch someones camera for them at one point XD. As i stood up from catching the camera i was asked sarcastically if i liked throwing myself in without thinking to save things. I handed her the camera and laughed.

The funny thing about trips  is that you can go a whole trip without speaking to some people and never get to know them. I’d gone a week on the trip without speaking to her, and half a year in science until now.

As i got on the bus again as we were about to drive to the hotel i was given a note that just said “Thanks for saving my camera”.

When the teachers said peopel could move around the bus again to chat to different people i was stopped getting up she came and sat next to me and started talking. The conversation started out with us wondering how we’d sat next to eachother in siceince for months and never spoken, then it moved into just general chatting and gettng ti know eachother. We then arrived and Mim snatched a pad from Mitch and wrote a number and Email on it and ran off to the back of the bus.

Its weird. Some people you just remembner the first time you meet more clearly.

Back in England over the course of year 10 and 11 i continued to get on with Mim more and as a result in ways became less shy.

I became a prefect, the power was brilliant. Not. Prefects are just a way hat the school can cut down on lunchtime supervisors and costs -.- Bastards.
GCSE Exams and picking colleges. My friends are all split between two, i choose the one best for me regaardless.

Sailing is still going well.. as are all watersports. Im practicing in many now. I have a  kite and a kite surf board and im taking a full on interest in general watersports.  I also take part in a national race. I come 60 something out of 120+

Im getting bored now….

During summer i begin to help instruct and work on that part of sailing.
College started and life carried on as normal until december. I goto London to see Kaiser chiefs with my friend Mitch. I also intend to goto a YouTube gathering. I do. But due to Mitch being there i have to leave early.

Soon i am told to come into stickam chats, and i spend much of the end of december up later in Mhazz’s stickam room. This continues until March, and then till April when i finally meet everyone properly.

Mhazz had a note on a list to “Touch Toms hair” =) It was cool back then. Hard to think it was only a year ago, feels like ive known everyone ages… College cotinued normally, i pass a driving test, Meet Laura and goto Scotland. have some Exams, goto Youstage

Ok earlier i had motivation to do this cause i was bored. Now im not so bored. So fuck it. Im only putting in what i remember anyway, and its not much XD


This week i got Bo Burnhams new album. There’s a fair bit of live stuff on it, and it’s very good =)
I found myself picking up where he says “Mother Fucker” alot, and as a result this past week have ended texts with “MOTHER FUCKER” tweeted “MOTHER FUCKERRR” and randomly cut in on skype convos with “MOTHER FUCKERRRR”

Offline life is worse as i find myself randomly blurting “MOTHER FUCKERRR” and not being able to explain it cause noone knows who Bo Burnham is….

offline life fail =(

Small details.

It’s weird. I find that i can pick out the smallest details about a person at first glance. In a way you could say i instantly analyse someone and mark up certain things – Scars, spots, glasses, hair colour ect.
In doing this i guess i kinda play a game with myself where i think of things about the person and as i get to know them more i find out if i was correct or not XD
Sometimes i find myself suprised when friends come out with statements that show they’ve only just noticed small details about me… i don’t know why im suprised. Most of them are small details and some i don’t necessarily want people to notice.
In the queue for the cinema yesterday Mim turned around and said “You have a scar under your chin…. how have i never noticed that?”
I myself had forgot about the scar. I did it to my chin when i was uber young so its a small detail even i didnt remember.. at first i was suprised Mim hadnt noticed it before… i mean… she’s known me some time now, but then equally i found myself realising…

I look at these details in other people. I don’t take time to look at myself and pick things out or remember them oO

Im a bad person to myself. Its like… Im disgusted by me :O Which im not